Yesterday sucked. All day long, I wanted to go into the kitchen, not because I was hungry, necessarily, but because I was bored. These days, weeks, months at home have formed a bad habit. There's nothing else to do. And when I find something to do, it's usually being creative in the kitchen, trying new recipes, tweaking recipes I find, using different ingredients, etc.
But I did it. It was NOT easy, but I did it. And this morning I'm down two pounds. Yippee! I don't have anyone to really celebrate with, and it seems silly to celebrate something that could come back with a glass of water, so I am celebrating here with you, my blog, my outlet.
And actually, it won't come back with water, because I drank SO much water yesterday. That was one of my strategies. Every time I wanted to eat, I drank a cold glass of water. My food consisted of cottage cheese, 2 eggs, turkey sausage, a spoonful of peanut butter, seltzer water... I feel like I'm leaving something out. But I made sure it was protein based and little to no carbs. Oh, it was cheese! I ate some cheese for a snack.
Today, I am heading to the market to stock up on veggies and fresh proteins. Clear out the fridge of any temptations. This is do or die. And my new juicer is supposed to arrive today. With the way deliveries have been the last few months, I'm not holding my breath, but I'll be super excited if it actually does. Fingers crossed the scale continues on this downward trajectory!
Tuesday, June 30, 2020
Monday, June 29, 2020
My Journey, Day 1
This quarantine is killing me. And I want my life back. I am taking my life back.
In Spring, 2019, I met a wonderful man who spoils me to bits. That is where the weight gain started. Going out to amazing dinners. Being treated to delectable breakfasts. And he was in love with all of me, physically, mentally, emotionally, whether I gained 30 pounds or not. I had NEVER had this before and I loved every second of it. I still do.
Fast forward a year. We're still going strong, but between that weight gain and COVID-19, I am unhappy with the direction my body is taking. My clothes aren't fitting right. I don't feel good. I don't feel confident and fabulous like I did when I met him. I mean, I KNOW I'm still fabulous, but I don't FEEL fabulous, and I want to feel amazing like I did before.
I know what I need to do, but I'm having a hard time doing it. It doesn't help at all that my routine has been totally disrupted and I have nothing to do. There's no accountability and no social dynamic to check in with anyone. I can have the best laid plans, buy the healthiest food, and if I don't do it, nothing happens at all. I don't even have to tell anyone about it. There are no consequences.
On a whim, I bought into the latest craze... the KetoFast supplements. I have no idea how they will work, because I haven't taken them yet. Well, I just took the first one about half an hour ago. But the purchasing was a disaster. They ran unauthorized charges on my account for orders I didn't make.
After a 90 minute hold for Customer Service, I reached someone who refunded those charges and I thought I was good. Then my purchase didn't arrive. I called again and was told there was nothing they could do because my order was cancelled. I was upset and felt I had been scammed, but then the order did actually arrive, so I took some deep breaths and I'm trying to get back to the place I was when I started, when I felt optimistic about what it might do to help me get started on my weight loss journey.
Another thing I've been wanting for about a year has been a juicer. I had one years ago, but I expressed my interest again last weekend, and my boyfriend, also a major foodie, recommended I watch "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead," which I found on YouTube. I watched the entire thing and the next morning, I ordered a juicer.
Will I be entirely Keto, keeping carbs under 20 g per day? Probably not. Will I be on a juice fast for 60 days? Probably not. But if I can blend the two together, that can only be healthy, right? It's got to be better than ice cream for breakfast. #keepingitreal
So, today is Day 1. I weighed in this morning at 278.3 lbs, and the scale says my BMI is 43.6. I didn't put this weight on in a day, so I don't expect it to come off in a day, but here in my little corner of virtual land, I will laugh and cry and pour out my frustrations and celebrate my successes. But I will be honest. Welcome to my journey.
In Spring, 2019, I met a wonderful man who spoils me to bits. That is where the weight gain started. Going out to amazing dinners. Being treated to delectable breakfasts. And he was in love with all of me, physically, mentally, emotionally, whether I gained 30 pounds or not. I had NEVER had this before and I loved every second of it. I still do.
Fast forward a year. We're still going strong, but between that weight gain and COVID-19, I am unhappy with the direction my body is taking. My clothes aren't fitting right. I don't feel good. I don't feel confident and fabulous like I did when I met him. I mean, I KNOW I'm still fabulous, but I don't FEEL fabulous, and I want to feel amazing like I did before.
I know what I need to do, but I'm having a hard time doing it. It doesn't help at all that my routine has been totally disrupted and I have nothing to do. There's no accountability and no social dynamic to check in with anyone. I can have the best laid plans, buy the healthiest food, and if I don't do it, nothing happens at all. I don't even have to tell anyone about it. There are no consequences.
On a whim, I bought into the latest craze... the KetoFast supplements. I have no idea how they will work, because I haven't taken them yet. Well, I just took the first one about half an hour ago. But the purchasing was a disaster. They ran unauthorized charges on my account for orders I didn't make.
After a 90 minute hold for Customer Service, I reached someone who refunded those charges and I thought I was good. Then my purchase didn't arrive. I called again and was told there was nothing they could do because my order was cancelled. I was upset and felt I had been scammed, but then the order did actually arrive, so I took some deep breaths and I'm trying to get back to the place I was when I started, when I felt optimistic about what it might do to help me get started on my weight loss journey.
Another thing I've been wanting for about a year has been a juicer. I had one years ago, but I expressed my interest again last weekend, and my boyfriend, also a major foodie, recommended I watch "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead," which I found on YouTube. I watched the entire thing and the next morning, I ordered a juicer.
Will I be entirely Keto, keeping carbs under 20 g per day? Probably not. Will I be on a juice fast for 60 days? Probably not. But if I can blend the two together, that can only be healthy, right? It's got to be better than ice cream for breakfast. #keepingitreal
So, today is Day 1. I weighed in this morning at 278.3 lbs, and the scale says my BMI is 43.6. I didn't put this weight on in a day, so I don't expect it to come off in a day, but here in my little corner of virtual land, I will laugh and cry and pour out my frustrations and celebrate my successes. But I will be honest. Welcome to my journey.
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